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Natalie Powell is used to slamming opponents into the ground, but the Welsh judo star admits it was a personal battle over her own identity that left her properly floored.

The Commonwealth champion of 2014 will finally get a chance to defend her title in Birmingham this month, but the absence of her sport from the Gold Coast Games four years ago was nothing compared to the frustration going on in her personal life.

One of Team Wales’ most successful and experienced athletes, Powell came out as gay in 2017 after what she describes as “six years of pain.”

Powell was ranked world No.1 in 2017 – the first UK judoka to reach that pinnacle after the introduction of an official ranking list.

But the strain of competing while not being true to herself and those around her proved intolerable.

“It was a year after the Rio Olympics, in 2017, that I broke down,” says Natalie, who was based in Birmingham at the time at the British Judo Centre of Excellence.

“I went to the Worlds, got a bronze medal, which was my best performance, and soon after got to number one in the world. 

“I was also pushing myself and saying, 'if I get through the judo. I'll be fine.' 

“I was living with one of the girls on the team in Walsall then and I was crying, uncontrollably. I told her and once I did that things started to improve.  

“Within six months I was like another person. It was just a weight off my shoulders. 

“I was comfortable in myself and couldn't believe what I'd put myself through. But I think it's just culture and what people see as social norms when you're growing up.”

Natalie says she always felt confident that her family and friends would be supportive of her decision to come out.

But even with that reassurance in her mind, she still found taking the step a daunting experience.

Natalie powell gives thumbs up next to house gym equipment
Natalie Powell training at home during lockdown.
It was definitely the hardest thing in my life I've had to deal with. For six years, I was not comfortable with who I am.
Natalie Powell

“It was definitely the hardest thing in my life I've had to deal with. For six years I was not comfortable with who I am. 

“Eventually, when I moved to Walsall and I was away from my friends and family, I just broke down.

“After Rio I knew that if I didn't come to terms with this and deal with it I wasn't going to be able to progress before Tokyo. 

“But I found it very difficult to actually say to someone that I was gay. It was crazy, really, because I had such a good support system around me. 

“I can't imagine how difficult it is for people who don't have a good support network or it's against their beliefs to be gay. 

“I knew my parents, family and friends would all be supportive, but I still couldn't bring myself to say it. If I could go back and take away those five or six years of pain I would. 

“It was such a big issue in my head, I had so many sleepless nights over it.”

Powell hails from the village of Beulah, near Builth Wells in Powys and took up judo from the age of eight.

She won silver at the European Open in 2014 and then stormed to gold at the Commonwealth Games in Glasgow that same year at the age of 23.

“I always wanted to win at the Commonwealth Games, ever since I was at Irfon Judo Club and Gary Cole came back with a bronze medal from Manchester. 

“Winning in Glasgow was really special. We only get to compete for Wales at the Commonwealths, really . . . and Wales were the ones that supported me all the way through as well.”

Powell was tipped a major medal prospect for Great Britain at the 2016 Olympics, but came home disappointed with a seventh-place finish.

She admits that left her deflated, but the rollercoaster ride continued with her bronze medal at the 2017 World Championships, followed by hitting the No.1 world ranking, and then a slump at the delayed Tokyo Olympics.

“I didn't come anywhere near what I had hoped to achieve,” she admits.

“I felt I was in a place in 2020 that I needed to be for the Olympics. But then the Games were cancelled and everything was turned upside down. 

“I threw myself into training, but in hindsight I was probably a bit burned out when the Games came around.”

A year on, and Natalie feels more confident.

“I'm on the other side of that now. I'm enjoying judo again and hoping to get back to my form for the Commonwealths and the Worlds in October. 

“The Commonwealths have really given me a goal to get back on track.”

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